Sad Little Caterpillar

Why so sad, caterpillar?

You miss the wings you’re still growing.

Have patience. It’s worth the wait and not knowing.

So you lost you..So you lost you..

What did it say before it left?

See you later

How long ago was that?

Forever

When will it be back?

When it finds me

Are you afraid?

No

Really?

There is nothing here to fear. I won’t be long…

Keep working and stay strong.

He has trouble understanding his needs.

He takes offense to the breeze cuz he’s down on his knees

Steady wondering what his emotions might mean.

Where’s the in between?

Beneath the lie of normalcy;

You know, the formality of normality. 

It takes a lot to cox myself out sometimes.

I have a few years of self abuse, self neglect to rectify

I struggle to trust even myself at times

I feel emotionally raped, violated in the most delicate of places in a dutifully brutal manner. 

I’m healing, but it’s difficult to forgive me for allowing it, for taking myself for granted.

Sometimes I take myself too serious; at others, not serious enough.

I feel it’s high past time to prove whom I’m meant to become.

Relax, love. It’s meant to be fun. You’re gonna love it. Hard work, dedication, and perseverance pay off slowly, but in enormous strides. Spread them wings out and fly. There’s no good reason to hide.