Not like I have a choice, but..

She’s giving it her all, and I’m allowing her

She’s all in, and I’m allowing her to be

Because

I’m not for her, and she’s not for me

We’re one of God’s contingencies

Not what she most wants to be..

Let’s say, Ok..

Just for

Argument’s sake

A hypothetical, romanticized

Situation to help the explanation

To put me in her position

Say Kev’s death had never come to fruition

Say, for whatever reason,

God had spared his life

And what I thought then might happen, happened,

And we were there now

But, it was different somehow

Than I had imagined it to be

Because, for some reason,

For whatever reason,

He wasn’t the man that

I had imagined he would grow into be

You see all this potential

Because you know exactly what you saw

Cuz God showed you

God showed me

Ok, but it turned out not to be the truth

Something changed

This thing called free will

Kinda got in the way

The dream was derailed

The fantasy failed

Now you gotta do something else

That’s a contingency plan

You know, like Plan B

That’s why they named that shit that, you see

Cuz it’s like

Now what?

What I thought I was gonna do,

I can’t do anymore

I spent a whole lot of time

Down there on the floor

I spent a Whole lot of time

Down there on the floor

And my knees hurt

So much, I didn’t know if they’d work

When I got back up

But they do

So, you know, let’s move

Anyway..

You got knocked down

I did too

Alright,

So let’s say that he had survived

Or

None of that ever happened

Or

Whatever situation you want to imagine

Where he’s alive, but not who we all knew he was going to be, you know?

Then what?

The person who saw the most

Potential

The one that stuck around through all the issues

Would that person then

Be stuck in prison with you

Cuz you choose take the Blue Pill?

I’m sorry..

Why the fuck would that be God’s Will?

Ascension is tough

It’s really rough

Because it’s rare

To see, you know, a pair

Or

More than one do it in one family

That means..

Damn,

None of these folks can come with me?

Not necessarily

But not everybody and not everywhere

Not doin exactly what you’re doin

And not to be the partner

You know,

Your partner in crime

Your best friend

Your wife

Your husband

Your life

The person you trust

To take care of your kids and shit

If you don’t make it

Back with them this time

You know..

The person that you want to spend some time with

Watch the sunset and rise with

Cook breakfast

And buy dinner for

Get her cute little things to wear

So you can see her show it off

You know, her derrière

I’m just sayin..

If you ascend

And the person you thought was goin with you don’t

There is going to come a time when you’ll do something you always said you won’t

You’re either going to settle for less than you know you deserve

Or you’re gonna leave behind the person you knew you’d share forever with

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I’m sorry to be the person to tell you this

But I’m gonna tell you cuz nobody told me

I didn’t know

And..

I Don’t Want to Go

Fuck..

I know exactly what’s about to happen

My steps are ordered

And I’m not turning back

Because that’s really the only rule that I was given

Do Not Do That

You know where you’re going

You know where you’ve been

You know what you’ve seen

You know what it means

So..

I know exactly what’s about to happen

I wish something could be the exception

I wish We could be the exception

I could be the exception

You could be the exception

They could be the exception

Us

Anything

I hate that I know what this means

I hate that there’s no room with you for me

Finally learned to let you be

I love your fuckin guts, but not enough to not love me

I want you most

But what you want most ain’t me