Where Does Fantasy End and Reality Begin (Dissociating)

Where Does Fantasy End and Reality Begin?

Oh no..

Must be dissociating again

Right quick...

I want to talk about that other one

The Narcissist

The Opportunist

It started with a kiss

And ended with a diss

A lot of shit

I will and won’t miss

Shit…

Just leave it in the past

Love and Light that ass

Talk to God

Cuz I know I AM

Truth is..

She reminded me

A bit of the old me

Just a bit more extreme

I am a refugee here

Nobody knows me

Best not to trust most

Of what you hear

Nobody knows me

Coming in peace here

Nobody shows me

Any release?

Here

So, what exactly did you mean here?

I’m sayin I can’t be ME here

There’s no room here

With your idea of what or who

You assumed

I should be

Based on when you first saw me

Before you even knew me

Walked up to me

Said what’s up

Thought you saw right through me

Sized me up

Thought you’d let your whole crew

Do me

But not too rough,

She’s got a job when ya’ll get through, B

Too Easy..

Turns out,

Not really

I’m very protective of myself

These days

You’re gonna have to show me

You ain’t on no fuck shit

Before I’ll be sure

You’re someone I could fuck wit

I’m just waiting on the white Rabbit

Ya boy always runnin late

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They’re burnin’ down Maui and kid napping kids. Got AI takin over. We in the real matrix, kid.

How the fuck do I wake up outta this shit?

They bout to launch another pandemic,

and this times the choke hold.

15 min cities where they’ll force us all to grow old.

You’ll need passes to travel and massive amounts of money that most won’t see in their Lives.

So the wealthy lizards runnin the circus will be happy to buy em.

They’ll be the only ones ‘fortunate’ enough to travel, but it’s not fortune it’s subterfuge.

Their building their legacy of ‘smart cities’ on your back right in front of you.

Better stand up while you got legs to hold you.

This New World Order’s gettin ready to fold you.

When they lock the world down again, what’s your plan?

What you gonna do?

They’re already attackin the food.

What you go eat?

The cloned meat?

Go head. It won’t feed you.

Notice your energy depleting?

Cuz that ain’t food that you’re eating.

It’s empty like their promises for a better future.

Those probably ain’t even humans they got rulin you.

At best they’re too old and entrenched to really give a shit beyond securing their own cushy ditch.

You act like you ain’t got no brain in yo head

Like you just a pretty face and a pair of legs to spread

Well looks fade and AIDS is real

Better figure out a way to sweeten the deal,

And I ain’t talkin bout findin someone else’s honey to steal

It’s actually not my fault that the way my mind works bothers you. It’s not my fault that the answer occurs to me like it’s a part of the question while you’re still trying to understand what the name meant. I’m not cheating or getting lucky. Just observing and shit. Fuckin exercising my wits, unleashing my gifts. And givin’ no fucks who the fuck don’t fuck wit this.

Instead of.. forgive and forget..

I like.. learn and forgive

That’s what you get

I told you not to do that shit

Don’t take credit for shit you ain’t do

Who you tryin to confuse?

You breakin the rules

Now the muse got heathens to take care of you

Not intending to be rude, my dude

But you done fucked up now

Over there playin it up for the crowd

Now the truth trickles in

Tickles your intuition..

Oh shit, son

Someone been fibbin.. now listen

Whose business you been in?

You trippin, friend

Don’t know who you foolin wit

I can be a bit vicious

And since I’m fully lucid again

Shit might, finna be gettin belligerent

Might wanna grab ya shit get missin

Cuz clearly, this Duce ain’t done enough wild’n in recent history

Y’all hearin me?

The new me just tapped the old me into the muhthafuckin story

That I have been willing to take responsibility for and remedy my mistakes without objection, does not mean that I will be willing to go beyond that with the same quiet compliance.

Listen friend,

We will do as we please. Take care how you use the word “they” around me. I’m with God, and our people are many. “They” might actually be we, and if you intend on dissing someone, that someone might be me. While God gave us Holy, he also made Heathens, and I’m both. So you might want to consider who “we” is. We Doucettes, Douces role in, role the curtain, role another one of dem den

Get back to workin..

I didn’t build a wall

I raised a dragon

Good luck wit what

Schrodinger‘s raggedy ass cat dragged in

Damn near 5 years celibacy

No sex is one thing, I do my own thing

Practice makes perfection any Fuckin way

But what I miss more than magic is kissin those lips driftin into madness

What time is it?

I don’t know.. I do know I’m wide awake and not happy about it

Pull the phone out of my pocket

Unlock it

Of course it’s 0711

Just a little reminder from heaven

That it might not be as over as this reality might be pullin the wool up over on me

I mean.. maybe somethings have been intentionally kept from me

To see

What I might do without them..

Just sit and look at em?? Or what you go do with this shit? Looks like you quittin..

Naw I’m just givin in to the divine within don’t know how you gettin to the God you be trustin in

Feels like you thought God was a He

And that made You intrinsically greater than Me..

Now you big mad..

But for real, you’re just sad..

You’re mad cuz YHWH waitin for you to take Xeir hand

Takin risks like leftovers

Could be good

Could be garbage

But you risk it if you starvin

What is it??

I’m sure what you mean is..

Who is Xe?

Xe is a person. Like you and me.

Xe doesn’t understand your gender binary

Cuz it has no fit for Xe.

So we either lie somewhere in between

Or on the periphery

On the fringes of your society

Where you get to decide where to sit me

Cuz none of the other guests quite feel comfortable around me.

If we’re lucky or something

Perhaps there might be

A couple or three other Xars

That ID as Xe that might be sat with ours. 🤷🏽

Well.. our little sat group grew

And gained more than a few

Members and glances.

Now y’all all up in our business and romances.

The best we can be for one another is damage control. We have to be allowed to make our own mistakes to grow. The rest of us are around for damage control.

Collateral damage is a natural byproduct of freedom.

Free will is still a God given right.

If you are still caught up on the God part..

Goodnight

Start a pod cast or somethin

See who else is on the same shit you smokin,

And see what they think of this masterless universe you insist exists

I’m done with that part of the shit.

It’s none of my business

Your growth is your responsibility

I’m over here workin on me.

All are welcome.. pets, people, and poltergeist

We ask only that you be ever respectful of the current residents, both fleshlings and otherwise

My my..

Look at the time..

I appear to be a might behind

Wonder where the rest went blind?

Or is there something in me that can LITERALLY see,

But with a different type of eyes,

That which is utterly blind

to those of theirs completely?

There’s a sense in me

That can see their faces

In everything

In all the places..

The *egregores..

I see those and more..

**Lucy shows up and asks Jesus and Buddha some questions about an egregore. He says he thinks he’s starting to understand why he thought the things he thought that got him expelled from Heaven with all of his followers. He is starting to understand, One, how he mistook an egregore with his name for he, himself. And Two, how he mistook the both of those for God or something equal or better than God.

They, both Jesus and Buddha, can relate to number one well. They too are often mistaken for the egregores that share their namesakes, but they were more quick, relatively speaking, with recognizing and understanding number two. The egregore.. no matter how big it is, can never be greater than that which created it because the creation is a part of the creator and vice versa. So really, if the creator is destroyed or bested by the egregore, the victory belongs to the creator since the creator created the creation of xeir self. It all goes back to source.

Meanwhile.. Tiffany has a flashback to being called Tiff-Faaaanny by some nasty boy back in school. Then she explains how he was the first of many. She cannot stand when anyone pronounced her name that way. **TRIGGERED *DR *Dissociate and Dissociates **TRIGGERED Triggered by the name thing..

Blake can Relate. I guess I can too. That’s why I’m called Duce. She doesn’t like her name spoken because of the way its sound was used against her. They energetically affected her worth by associating it with unpleasant memories. They lower your frequency by pulling you to those past events through memory. When you feel it happening, BREAThE.. Take a BREATh. Be cognizant and present. What’s the benefit from you in the current lesson? Not just for you, but of you.. co-created knowing we got LOVE on our team. The creator that created all things

Blake.. (Gold-Kiiara?)** God Particle?**(corrected spelling mistake.. dissociate**)

She leaves a party. The twins split up to find her. The dead one (not dead yet, though) finds her. He gets her back upstairs and begins to punish her. She flashes back to them leaving her in the burning trailer. She kills him.. the other twin shows.. Yadda Yadda.. If you know, you know.

Who’s driving?

That’s the question, but the answer isn’t nearly as important as who you believe gives the answer.

Or rather,

If you believe it’s not for you.

To tell the truth, ain’t no one lyin, but you.

Your time is through

Because you’re the one who believes it is.

Now I get it..

It’s all the SPIRIT.

YH WH

One SPIRT.

And we’re all up in it

And guess what..

It’s all up in us too.

Damn.. how old is that gum?*

Always need somethin to chew..

Give him a *Gun in front of the youth

And see what xe does. It’s anyone. It’s everyone.

It could be any of us. It could be you.

The same Spirit breathes in you.

At this point, can’t tell if I’m getting through.

They are trying to bait you. Lead you. Relate?

You..

They the one that’s there at the gate.

I don’t care cuz I’m literally just meditatin.

I think this one does nearly everyone I love cuz

It’s right now when we all go to God.

How do you define it? That? Them? They? Him? Her?

All of us, none of the differences matter.

This is when the fragile illusions are shattered.

Is there one thing in common? Is there one thing we all hold true?

There is certainly something above you,

But that something is not any One Human Being.

Cuz it’s that energy above us that has love for all of us and wouldn’t hurt us..

It can’t be one person because it includes that person and every other person.

Even me.

So if it’s everyone, everything. All the stuff we’ve ever seen,

I’m good.

Cuz I ain’t doin a thing God wouldn’t do.

And, when I don’t know what that is..

I sit down with God and let God explain it.

Cuz what I talk about with God is God’s and my business.

-*DR black mirror Dissociate

DEEP BREATH just BREATHE.. it’s right

This slows you down,

Sheds a light

Cuz now your focusing on how to spell each of those

And you take your time and focus.

Then you do what it says.

Take a deep breatH and breathE

*Yea this gum/gun is old

*They dumb.

They be tryin to say one thing and say another one

Is it slander if it didn’t hurt her?

How big is the circle?

How many people knew about this before her?

How many people knew the lie before she had time to defend herself?

Who all has to be proven the truth?

And is there any damage that y’all can’t undo?

Look here @ their faces as they disapprove of my life decisions

For no reason

Picture the bag of dicks @ the door

Labeled

Suck as many as you like

For the rest of your life

I’ve asked God to see me through

To

The other side of the forest

Cuz I’m blinded by the trees.

It would appear more meditation

Is what I need

Got things

Need tending

Crops and Chaos need feeding

Don’t mind me

I misunderstand everything

If monkeys could talk,

Would they be offend by the way

Their name

Is used?

Probably, huh?

Cuz monkey see, monkey do

They’d probably follow suit

And harass an ass for his shoes

Should’ve worn boots

The ass is the first and last

Misused

Don’t let yourself

Be confused

For a fool

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They want me sayin things

Out loud again

Not God

God wants me to hold the pen

If I’m askin not to die,

Would you let me live?

Does it mean I must die

If I have no more to give?

Shhh…

Just BreathE

Take a breatH

Relax

What do you think I’m saying No to?

The facts…

I’ll show you

Where you’re wrong

I never said I wouldn’t

I even put it in a song

I said I couldn’t

And could could change

But it needs a should or could

From you in exchange

What I see

Is not nearly

As important as

What you see,

But I’ll point out a few things

To help you see what I mean

Then I’ll leave you to do your own thing

The sun does move;

It’s true,

But the sun won’t move

Just for you

If you can do it,

Move it

I want to see you do it

Don’t talk about it

Be about it, my dude

Prove it

No consciousness HAS to occupy

Any given timeline.

All possible timelines exist.

You decide which

You occupy.

You die here,

But there,

You go on as if you hadn’t.

Your consciousness doesn’t realize

Anything’s changed or strange happened.

It’s not about want. It’s about belief.

What timeline do you believe has the power to hold you?

Why?

None? Ok..

Now you can fly.

When there is but one, that is God.

All others are possibilities,

But none can stand alone

Except the great I AM,

With us all along

Inside and out.

There is no within without

WE.

I feel like what I see,

Only I see sometimes.

Don’t no one else

Know how to fly?

Y’all in disguise??

Well, shit.. high bitch

Hi!!!

Hope I didn’t lose you again...

Go back to the start

Remember the first part

Is it fantasy

Or reality?

Again?

Dissociating

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For those Copy & Pastin, let’s keep that for personal reasons or just ask, cuz if you’re tryin to plagiarize, my voice is difficult to imitate and even harder to disguise or mask.. A rather unrewarding task *shrugs* could’ve just asked.